Friday, February 26, 2010
Day Two: where no disaster happened.
Day Two of blogging: and nothing happened. Thank you, thank you. No earthquake that swallowed up my family, no angry mob of neighbors carrying torches to kick my door down. No nasty comments of what a stupid idiot I am and what makes me think I'm an empress when I sound like a hag and who names their kids names like that anyway. Whew.
For about a year now, I've wanted to start a blog. But fear of criticism, rude comments, too much of my business out there, has held me back. Becoming semi public, my words up for grabs and open to public viewing? Why would this be enough to control my actions? I'd begin, I'd go to blogger.com, only to X out again, and not begin anything. All the negative, discouraging self talk of, "you don't know enough, you're not one of those hi-tech mamas...you can't. You'd look stupid, and everyone could see how little you know." Those thoughts right there? are the thoughts I let determine my actions.
I've grown tired of FEAR determining if I do things or not. When you get older, you get introspective like that.
But, nothing happened since yesterday. And that is A-OK. I knocked one thing off the bucket list, and so I say, Carpe Diem!
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I am so happy you can now actually check something off your bucket list! Yay you!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteWhoop whoop! I'm so glad you started your blog. You have lots of beautiful, fun, hilarious, and insightful things to share. Thank you for putting yourself out there!! Welcome to the blogosphere.
ReplyDeleteThank you, OMwCW: you rock!
ReplyDeleteI finally have some time to check out your blog and read some of your older posts! How wonderful you made this leap (and how well you have done so far)! I can totally relate to this! I have let fear and paranoia hold me back for years too - started and stopped blogs, etc. Good for you! + you're an inspiration!
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