Grateful for Sun, Children Still Home, and Things To Do

Today is one week since my mother passed away.

What's strange is that it feels like only days since she was here while at the same time feeling like we've been without her much too long already.

So strange.

The weather here today is sunny and blue skies, my children are home with me three more weeks, and I've grown blind to piles of housework around me. We'll be going to visit my mother's grave later on, taking her the lilies she loved so much from our garden. I know she has her own beautiful lilies where she is now, and that gives me peace that leaves me with an unexpected smile.

Thank you to all of you for your cards and emails and facebook messages. There is a strength that comes from knowing people really care... care to the point where you can drink up that love knowing you are not alone.

The internet is wonderful, and unless you have at least one foot in it, no one can believe how people you've never met, carry you. But you all have, and you do, and I am grateful for that today.

xo

**I had the most wonderful dream this weekend. It was a day in late fall, and my children and I were walking up a cement path to a light grey bungalow that had a full outdoor front porch, when we saw my mother come outside of the house and begin sweeping the wooden floor energetically with a megawatt smile. "I didn't know you were coming so early!" she said, "I have a house again!" She kept on smiling, looking at us. We were so happy to see her and shouting "Nona!" we ran up the steps.

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