From when he would give me clumps of grass like they were treasure.
Children are romantic geniuses. We are
swept off our feet with wild declarations of love that burst forth from
hearts that aren't big enough to contain what we mean to them. When
they fix their clear unblinking eyes to ours, grab our cheeks between
their pudgy hands and whisper at volume 28 as only little ones can,
“I don't care if you are an old lady you are my favorite face,”
the air fills with Ravel's Bolero. A child's poetry, words set
to flight that are worthy enough to land at Aphrodite's feet.
Instead, it is we who are the blushing recipients of diamonds
spilling from cupid's bow mouths.
My three children have wet whispered
words of love into my ear that would set any college woman's cheeks
ablaze. But it was with my firstborn's pleadings to my mother when
she tried to kiss his angel feet that, “No! No! My piggy toe is
only for mommy to kiss!” that I knew I had to start a notebook
reserved for the purity of the unguarded love my kids had for me.
Over the years, I've quickly scrawled
the small daily verbal notes of love from my babies. Grabbing any scrap of paper, any broken piece of crayon around, I'll try to catch word for word the magic before it rises and joins with the stars of the universe. All one and two
sentence wonders, but the ones I share here are from the moments that
their words crashed beautifully into my heart, shattering it into a
million glorious pieces.
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“Do they sell brown balloons, mom?
Because I want some that are the color of your eyes.”
“I don't get it. When I put frosting
on my graham cracker it doesn't taste like when you put frosting on
my graham cracker.”
“Mom? Stay here until I fall asleep
because I want to hold your hand and take you with me to my dreams.”
“I wish it could be OK to marry your mom.”
“Most kids at school don't like it
when someone says you look like your mom. But I do.”
“I made a wish on the dandelion, mom,
that you could be little again and we could be friends.”
“Stay here, and watch this show with
me. It's funnier when you're here.”
“Is there a law that says you have to
live away from home? How about one that says you can't live next
door?”
“I'm going to build a house with a
secret side door so you can sneak in and my wife won't know and you
can still live with me.”
“You know how you do a thing? And it
makes you not want to do other things? That's what it is when you
swing me.”
“When we're old together, mom, do you
think we'll still like walking on this path?”
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Our children and their romantic genius.
Shakespeare could learn more than a thing or two about the seduction
of love expressed simply and unbridled, with the intense want for
someone who is your world for that short, magical time of childhood.
On the rough patchy days that
motherhood can bring, when I doubt that I'm the good mother that my
children deserve, I look through my notebook of love and I'm reminded
just what a wonder of a mother I must be, to have had these love
poems written to only me.
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I love these so much. And you'll appreciate this, Alexandra:
ReplyDeleteLast week I sat on the couch stroking my 16-year-old daughter's arm while she watched TV. At 4:30, I told her I had to leave. A friend was expecting me. My daughter looked up and said, "Mom, in two years I'll be in college and you'll wish you'd spent five more minutes tickling me."
Genius girl.
I texted my friend. "Sorry. Running late!"
This pure love, seriously. Save it, you college boyfriends from the past, because this, is everything.
DeleteI adore this! <3 So much cuteness.
ReplyDeleteYou are so sweet! Thank you!
Delete"I'm going to build a house with a secret side door so you can sneak in and my wife won't know and you can still live with me.” Boys. Pre-ruining inlaw relationships since forever.
ReplyDeleteRight? She'll love that.
DeleteOh. This.
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